Not feeling well

The last month has been challenging for several reasons: we brought to close a 37-year season of our lives when we packed our belongings into several PODS and drove away from Orlando. Mary Kay and I experienced many emotions as we recalled events and reminisced on relationships over the past four decades.  It was like bringing a chapter to an end without really beginning the next one.  I don’t think I am ready to process this yet; it’s simply too fresh to identify what I am learning. 

In addition, I have not felt physically well during this same period.  I had Covid and some other flu-like symptoms during this time. This upset much of what I have accepted as my normal life.  I struggled sleeping, breathing, eating, digesting and I am still coughing. 

What I find interesting is that many people associate good things with God and bad things with the Enemy.  I often hear others say that God has blessed them with a healthy kid, great weather, abundant financial resources, nice home, great spouse, quick mind, growing relationships, safe travels, physical health…and the list goes on and on.  There is a part of this that is true because we are told in James 1.17 that “Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.”

On the contrary, some followers of Christ seem to identify things they don’t like as being buffeted by the enemy.  I can’t recount how many times I have been told that the Enemy was the source of a bad boss, illness, hardship, financial trouble, failed marriage, disobedience, car accident…and the list goes on and on.  There is a part of this which is true because in 1 Peter 5:8-9 we are told, Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

But there is something unhealthy when we only see things are from God when they are good from our perspective and from the Enemy when they are bad from our perspective.  This is where the problem seems to reside.  When we assume we know what is good and what is bad for ourselves, we run the risk of assuming we are God, which is a bad move!

As I reflect on my life some of the most trying and challenging times have produced the most growth!  So why would I assume those were not times where God was attempting to produce a deeper faith in my life? I think Christians are way too quick to ascribe blame or a cause to what we experience or see around us. 

This is why in James 1.1-5 just before the passage I shared above, James says, Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

Basically, James tells us to allow God to work in our lives in any and all circumstances and not to be too quick to ascribe a cause.  In fact, he concludes this passage by saying if you lack wisdom on why this is happening, simply seek God’s perspective and he will give it to you.

I am feeling much better now and wondering what else God wants to teach me.






6 responses to “Not feeling well”

  1. David Brett Avatar
    David Brett

    Praying for you and Mary Kay as you start a new chapter in your lives. You have been a major influence in my life. I am indebted to you for your coaching and for friendship. God Bless.

    1. Greg Wiens Avatar
      Greg Wiens

      David, what a joy it was to work with you in ministry. I also owe much to your impact in my life. Ministry is always a two-way street.

  2. Mariann Strozier Avatar
    Mariann Strozier

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you in this big move. It’s funny how things can be physically and emotionally full and also draining.
    And thanks for sharing about this phenomenon of assigning blame and glory. We have lots of people in our lives these days who couldn’t be bothered with ‘God’ until something bad happens and then ‘God’ gets the blame. I put God in quotes because they use various words for my personal concept of the Creator.
    Humans. Can’t live with us, can’t live without us. Our God is so persistent on relationships!! 😊😊

    1. Greg Wiens Avatar
      Greg Wiens

      Yes, I am reminded of the comment that God created us in his image and then we returned the favor. So much of what people see in their god is simply a reflection of their own insecurities…thanks for your thoughts.

  3. Bill Ferguson Avatar

    Important thoughts, Greg! You spoke to me in this.

    I’m thankful for your courage to speak the truth about life that can (at times) seem to be going no where good. There is something to your idea of not blaming self or God for those times. It seems to be a part of the process and journey of faith.

    In Holy Week, I’m think about our tendency to want to leap frog from the troubles of “Good Friday” to the fixes of “Resurrection Sunday” in our lives. Specifically, I’m aware of my/our natural aversion to the silence of the “Holy Saturday”. Maybe it’s because we can’t explain why God isn’t speaking or acting. What if we were more willing to embrace these silent Saturday? We just might experience a different kind of closeness with God than we do in the troubles of Friday and the relief of Sunday. Just thinking!! May it be so. Love you brother! I hope your transition leads to new adventures and meaningful pursuits with the Lord.

    1. Greg Wiens Avatar
      Greg Wiens


      I loved your thoughts on Holy Saturday. It is so true that the quietness of Saturday is stifling because we really wonder where God went.

      Mary Kay and I memorized Lamentations 3.19-25 recently and the first few verses talk about remembering the affliction, wandering, bitterness and gall and the soul is downcast within me…”yet this I call to mind, because of the Lord’s faithfulness, we are not consumed. For his compassions never fail, they are new every morning”…

      But then he says…”So I say to myself, the Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for him!”

      It is almost like he is discouraged, yet he knows God is faithful. So he continues to remind himself of the Lord’s faithfulness, and WAITS. This is Holy Saturday in action.

      Thanks for your insights on this.

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